full of thoughts

I had a thought I would like to share about the adversary. I have had times in my life where I have not chosen the right. I am not perfect. I have done things that I have had to repent for, but that is why we are here isn't it? To learn and grow in the right direction. I have had times where I choose not to do what the Lord has asked of me. Afterwards I get to angry with myself thinking, "Was it really THAT hard to just choose the right? Devin, you are so stupid." I know that Satan mischievously plans these things out. I know that he gets me to think that I am weak and I can't stand for whats right. He causes me to get down on myself, so he can get a rise on me. I can't think of a specific time where this happened but I know it has. I know that Satan works on me. I can feel him. I can feel him all around me at times. At times I think I have lost my thoughts and my knowledge of the truth in the darkness that Satan surrounds me with, but I know that my Savior is there with his hand outstretched waiting for me to grab it. Sometimes I can't see it (feel it), but I have to have faith that He is there. I know that I am worthy to serve a mission. The only doubts I have about serving are coming from Satan. I know that by sharing what I know I make myself stronger and I pull myself closer to God. I am so grateful for the goodness of the Savior. I know that he has he hand outreached always waiting to help us. Even in the darkest abyss he is there ready to pull us to safety. I am ever so grateful and full of love for my Savior. I love the knowledge that I have been blessed with. I love the gospel and all it does for me in times of darkness and I say these things humbly in the name of my beloved savior, Jesus Christ, amen.